To Live or To Settle

The best person who knows you, is you. Being true to yourself is very important. You may disappoint others but only one person can live your life and that’s you. You only get one time in this lifetime so why not spend it striving for the things you love to do. If I would’ve been a pawn to the wishes of others right now I probably would be in the armed forces. Maybe married to some random guy because he looked great on paper. Let’s say a lawyer. We’d have like 3 kids. He’s probably also cheating on me and I spend most of my time being deployed to other countries. Drastic but every choice I would’ve let people make for me would’ve led me to a multiple different outcomes. Honestly I feel like I’ve spent the past ten years of my life not being where I want to be and time is only going to move forward. So instead of muddling through another ten years I'm making the active decision to go do what I want and chase my dreams.

I find that sometimes the people who are closest to you, such as your family can be the first people who think that what you dream for yourself is far-fetched and not attainable. If that was the case then no one would ever be happy nor would anyone ever get anywhere. I'm human, when people doubt me or respond negatively I get insecure and feel unsure. Then I realize that if I were to let that affect me or my drive, I would be stagnate doing the same things and living in the same place where I wasn’t happy. I'm making the conscious decision to take that negativity I receive and like kindling to a fire I will feed that to my ambition. That ambition will be a train engine and with a hotter fire, my gears will grind harder and the speed of my train will increase. They say you will get thousands of no’s until you finally get a yes. Well I guess I have many more no’s to come and that’s okay because one day I won’t hear no. That day I hear “yes” will be like putting a rocket on my train and I will continue to chug along.

So what will you choose? Will you choose to be compliant and coast along or will you finally take an active role in your life and choose to live?